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Sometimes I wounder, why God never made me and angle.. Why did he have to make me a human.. I'm a terrible person.. I'm weak and needy and I have to hide my self.. Just for the ones  I love.. I honestly feel.. That I can never be loved and cared for.. They say that God knows all... So he MUST know..that I'm fighting and endless battle in my head.. That my heart is filled with pain and sorrow..  That my soul is lost and broken.. God knows . I'm going through this pain.. Does he ever hear me when I cry... And if he does.. Does him or anyone.. Even care....
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noaartist Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2015
:( Ofcourse everyone cares about you...God cares about everyone.
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Rawriosu Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Of course. :heart:
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Maya-Lyfendha Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Heya, I heard from a friend of yours that you weren't doing too well... :huggle: I may not know you, but I'm here for you now. I always wondered why I was put on this Earth away from my home-world into this world of suffering, torment, and pain... I've learned it was to help as many people who are suffering right now as I can, and try to help restore order and happiness to their lives. During your journey through life, you may find yourself to one day wake as angel after all, free of pain, suffering, and torment forevermore. I've personally spoken to God on one such occasion... he is a very exhausted and tired fellow. He has very little energy to help us right now as faith for him is slowly diminishing, and he can feel all of our pain, and he still loves every last one of us. Brush away your sadness, brush away your sorrow, I will help you in your fight so that you no longer have to carry your burden alone, I'll help you find yourself, and you shall be reborn anew!
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madkrykan Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015
hello  from belorussia. i am  great-grandchild   of  enemy  of the peaple.fucking communistes. no  good  work.no wife.no future.  no friends .AND   FUCK THIS WOORLD.FUCK THIS. LIVE LONG AND PROSPER  DUDE.
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ZaidaCrescent Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015   Digital Artist
Sorry to hear you're feeling so down.  Try to remember you're not alone in this, though.

You've got your friend BazingPixels pretty worried about you -- and people can't worry if they don't care.  The fact that they're reaching out to try and get you some help and support tells me that they love you and really want to help you.

Depression is a horrible thing, but you can beat it.  You've got all the strength you need to overcome it, you just have to find it inside yourself.

And you can, and you will.  

Life gets rocky sometimes, and sometimes there isn't very much we can do to change it at the time.  It isn't weakness to feel sad or lonely, or even to feel broken when life takes a sharp turn or throws us something unpleasant.  I don't know what you're going through or what you're feeling right now, but try not to worry.  Things will get better. 
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015
thank you
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nobarawolfgirl Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015
I'm in the exact situation right now. I was raised Catholic, but over this past year, I've all but dropped any sort of faith I've had. With the crap I've had to deal with, whether it makes logical sense or not, I blame a lot of it on God. I know its unreasonable to, but I can't help myself. I wonder to myself everyday "What's the point of all of it? Why would you put me through that knowing the consequences of it all?" There are experiences I could've done without, but I'm starting to get to a point where I'm just accepting that there's a reason for it all, whether I know it or not.
I won't lie, its hard. Its really...really hard to accept that things happen for a reason. Most times it doesn't make sense, and we end up wanting to put the blame somewhere so we don't have to deal with reality. For me, that blame happens to fall on God, whether it was his fault or plan or whatever.
Yea, the tough things suck, but they also make us enjoy the little things in life that much more. Its two heads on a coin, and it all boils down to how you want to look at it.
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015
thank you.. im really trying.. i just want to be my old sefl
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nobarawolfgirl Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015
as cliche as it sounds, time really is the only thing that will help, along with friends and family supporting you.
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jakedragonhunter Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015  Student Digital Artist
don't think about this you are needed everyone is needed in this world no matter how small you my feel you bigger then you think so rise up tall and walk on forward with pried and show the world what you made of
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Rushingwater2 Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
We all care about u. U are ment it do great things that's why your not an angel. God loves u and he has a plan 4 u
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kittyminorin Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Whatever your going through right now will be okay and alright. God hears your suffering and feels your pain and also knew you will be going through this time since he is the god that sees all things. Deuteronomy 31:8  The lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Right now this very second The Lord is calling you. Listen to Him. If you haven't already, go to a spot where you can pray, and ask Jesus to come into your heart and life, and talk to Him. I know these are not popular things that i am saying, but go to Him and see what happens! You are loved!
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015
i accepted him as my lord and savior long ago.... when i was happy and normal back then... all of a sudden
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kittyminorin Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
.....all of a sudden you need him more now then ever to help you get through this. Im sure it seems hard but you can do it. He is listening so you just need to talk.
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015
i usally write letters to him... but i still feel hurt and pain.. i ever cry when i write
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lilinthia Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Hey, I may not know you personally, but what I do know is that EVERYONE is important.  You may feel lost at the moment, but eventually you will find your way.  Not everything is black and white or crystal clear, but it's the difficulties we face and overcome which shape us into the people we are.  You will find your way through this, I'm positive of this.  If you ever need someone to open up to I will be here.
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015
thank you.. but it seems thier is really no way out of this...
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lilinthia Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Yes there is, I may not know all of the details, but there is always a way.  Sometimes you may just need a little time to yourself, and other times you'll need the support of all of your friends.  Right now I know for a fact that at least one of your friends is standing strongly by your side, they're the one that directed me towards your plight.  You can work through this, I know you can.  You have those just waiting to support and help you the whole way along, just place a little bit of trust and faith in them.
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enderbowser Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Get your head out of your ass and buck up. Life isn't perfect, but the point isn't to make it perfect, it's to make something meaningful out of it, and enjoy the ride. I may not know much, but I do know that when you hurt, you don't make yourself hurt more. You get back up and you fight destiny. These feelings are just another obstacle for you to punch your way through. Keep going, don't give up until you've broken down everyone and everything foolish enough to stand in your way. Challenges only exist to be overcome. I believe in you more than you think. You can do it, keep pushing until there's nothing left.
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015
you may think im negative but i kinda already know hell is just going to keep coming my way.... sorry i know thier is nothin i can do about the problem i have ... im actully forced in some siturations
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enderbowser Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Every situation can be improved. I believe I said 'get your head out of your ass and buck up'. Quit moping. Shit could be worse, so deal with what you're dealt. The only one with the power to improve your life is you. If the world is against you, get off your ass and do something about it. Sorry for being a pragmatic douche, but it's the advice the me I want to be gave me when I felt like you do.
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015
i have been trying i worry day and night on how im going to fix this problem... since my problem is my self esteam is part of my depression i try really hard to get all the makeup i can to improve my looks find the right hair style cloths everything... i try to atleast get honest opinions from people on how i look but some are too afriad to even simply tell me whats wrong with my looks
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enderbowser Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Fuck that. Seriously that is just fucking stupid. You're getting this upset over your looks? You self-absorbed prick. I always look like I didn't go through hell, hell went through me, and I don't give a damn either way. Jesus H Christ I thought you had an actual problem but you're just upset because you don't look great. Fuck a duck, why don't people realize that there're more serious problems than how you look. Get over it and stop whining you little shit.
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015
okay look im not a self abosbed prick its called self esteam if you ever had it this bad. you cant undestand becasue you never had it. thier for you have no knowlage of what its like to feel ugly. yeah they are people who are more enotionaly weak then you okay? and atleats i try my damn hardest then anbody. okay and for the last time yeah thier are my seriose problems but sadness is not some fuckingn compition to brag about "oh my problem is worse then yours" like what the fuck? i feel fucking worhtless and unimpoortant becasue i feel ugly i get fucking ignored in real life ajnd see other people getting treated better while im treated like shit!! dumbass. You dont know what its like to feel ugly worthless and to feel like your fucking nothin. yeah ypur stronger then most people but dont be an asshole. EVERYONE ON THIS FUCKING PLANET HAS SIOMEHTING THAT IS IMPORTANT TO THEM. EVERYONE HAS A FUCKING WEAKNESS AT LEAST IM NOT CUTTING FOR JUSTIN OR BEING SAD OVER A FUCKING MATRIAL OBJECT. FEELING UGLY AND WORTHLESS IS A FUCKING EMOTIONAL PROBLLEM LOOK IT UP
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enderbowser Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know it's a problem, but it's a stupid one. You are only nothing when you worry about your looks this much. You are important. Everyone is. You are worth the same as everyone else on this rock. If you can't overcome this, it's not being emotionally weak, it's being emotionally incompetent. Stop pissing about this. It's not a substantial problem. If anyone is telling you you're ugly or worthless, they are mathematically guaranteed to be wrong. Cheer the fuck up already.
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2015
Let me know when you actually experience this and have just enough knowledge of what it FEELS like. Then you will actually have more knowledge of the problem
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2015
You may think its stupid but its important to me. What might be stupid to me might even be important to you. And don't tell me to cheer the fuck up already let me know when you have this
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BlazingPixels Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course He knows and of course He cares. Other people care, too. How do I know this? Because I care. You're not a terrible person. Whatever you say or do, you're not. So whatever happened to make you think that, is not true. Good has a plan for you just as much as the rest of us. You just have to listen to it. You were made beautifully. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Not being an angel didn't change that. You are and always will be. The same goes for everybody else in the world. So what if you're weak and needy? That's just how you are. A lot of people are like that. Nobody is perfect. We have our good sides and bad. We all make mistakes. That's just how people are. But that didn't change a thing. You're awesome and beautiful in your own way. So you don't need to hide yourself. You CAN be loved and CAN be cared for. I'm sure you are by many people. And even if not by a person, Good loves and cares for you. Isn't that worth something?
I'm praying for you. :heart:
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megayay Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015
thanks.
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